That’s some ADD shit
More transmissions from the new moon in Virgo/new trecena/upleveling the collaboration with the dead and subtle realms and collaboration with Kit.
And WOW, this is so interesting—after I’ve been battling the Otter AI every day, trying to get it to properly use they/them pronouns, suddenly in this transmission it identifies me not only as male, but as Riordan O’Regan, the trans*/true name to which I am trying to slowly transition.
(itself the subject of much other discussion… after the past four years of building bylines and “branding” myself under this old framework of journalism… like I branded my arm with an ex in Texas… for later.)
Riordan O'Regan discusses the importance of grounding oneself, emphasizing the need for "ground nuts" like peanuts over "tree nuts" like almonds. He critiques the commodification and exploitation of natural resources by white colonialists, referencing figures like George Washington Carver and the historical impact on civilizations. O'Regan reflects on the role of the shaman and the balance between pushing through and taking breaks, highlighting the need for rest and self-care. He also touches on the complexities of channeling energies and the importance of learning from past experiences and teachers, particularly in the context of astrology and personal growth.
Action Items:
Consult with elders and teachers during an upcoming trip to learn how to set boundaries during spiritual experiences.
Continue reading and practicing direct experiences, while also learning from other teachers. Focus with astrological guidance.
Consider developing a play retelling the TV show Seinfeld from Newman's perspective.
Transcript:
You’re nuts, you need grounding. That's why the energy of almonds can be so overwhelming. They're the nuts that come from a tree, not from the ground. I need the peanut energy. It gets dismissed as too simple, but these things are really important. What's more grounded than a nut that comes from the ground? The ground nut is the name for the peanut that George Washington Carver discovered, a Black man who is just another one of many who didn't get his credit where it was due, whose legacy was hijacked by white colonialists who made huge industries to profit off of the thing that they made by extracting the soul and using up the rest of it until it was a husk. I need not Skippy, but ground nuts. I need cacao, not chocolate. This is what all of us need. We need the real essence of the plant, the soul of the thing itself, the thing behind the thing, not the symbol, not the substitute, created by industries and sold back to us. Stealing and profiting off of our legacies, potatoes, peanuts, chocolate, things that have been made, commodities stripped of their essence, things that have made and broken civilizations, perhaps when they stopped respecting the plants and things got out of balance.
Maybe there's something to this with, yeah, white colonialists in America. I don't know enough about the history in Africa. Maybe there was something with the African kingdoms, because I know that some of them were collaborating with the colonialists and selling their own people as slaves, the Maya civilization that rose and toppled. Maybe part of that was from overusing cacao. Who knows? I mean, maybe it was at least one of many contributing factors.
Hmm, in the Irish and the potatoes. We never were a great civilization. We've always been kind of the losers of history. But I don't know. Maybe I don't know enough about our history to say that, because I don't know. I mean, the Celts were pretty fucking powerful and had a pretty fucking broad reach, so maybe I need to do more homework before I say things like that. Maybe that's just my own shame story coming through. But I think that's something common, and I remember talking to Michaela about that at one time, like we're all people who feel like we've been kind of the losers of history, same, same, but different. Your nuts, you need grounding. The almond energy is too crazy. It's the nut that grows in a tree. I need the one that grows in the ground to help me root down. I'm floating off into the ether. I need a tether. But this is the role of the shaman, the medicine maker, the healer, the one who can dip into that realm and titrate and come back and pull themselves back together, who can dissolve in acid and splinter off into particles, who can meld with the cells of the plants, the animals, the vegetables, the minerals, and then reassemble back into a human. That's the dance. The greatest showman, the greatest shaman, the one who can go between the worlds and the show must go on death and resurrection. When it gets to the end, it starts over again.
But where does the role of the self come in? Where does the role of the parent come in? When does someone have to step in and say, That's enough games for today. You need rest, you need care, you need feeding. It's time for sleeping. How do we know when are the times to push through? Because that phone is going to keep ringing. Alan Watts didn't know about channeling. Sometimes the phone keeps ringing, and it doesn't mean you have to pick it up every time. Sometimes you need to put that shit on. Do Not Disturb and rest for a while. So how do you know when it's a call you need to answer? How do you know when that's someone who really needs to get through? How do you know when it's time to just push forward, when it's time to use your ability to kind of keep soldiering on forever until you die, as strength to your advantage. How do you know when it's time to just keep pushing through for a while, because something needs transmitting and and receiving and and dictating and how do you know when you need to take a break when you've been associated from your body your whole life, and you don't really understand what is trying to say, and you're now opening yourself up as a channel to receiving all these transmissions for all these different energies and entities. Holy shit. Really. How do you know when you need a break? Well, then really, how do you know when you need rest? Well, then really, how do you know when it's you and something else that's trying to get your attention one way or another?
This is where I gotta consult with people who have walked this path before. This is where I need to learn from the others. And this is why I'm going to the homeland, and this is why I'm meeting with the teachers, because I need to learn from those who have been there before how to draw boundaries with things that aren't in bodies. I'm still learning how to do it with things that are embodied. So this is like a whole new level of shit. So kit, I ask for your help in this. I know you're already helping me, and I really appreciate it, and I'm gonna try my best to focus on this book and keep reading, but also doing my direct experiencing and also learning from these other teachers. And, yeah, the astrology is feeling really important, so please help me to focus. And thank you for being here in this wow. It's a lot. Wow, it's a lot new moon new trecena coming in hot. Thank you for the medicine.
You’re nuts. You need grounding. Sometimes you feel like a nut. Sometimes you don't. Deedee just popped in to remind me that that was the slogan for planters peanuts when I was a kid growing up, and it would play on TV. Sometimes you feel like in that sometimes you don't. And Greg would say it too, man and Greg was a fucking trickster, if I ever saw one. Oh, yeah, that was another thing that came in this morning.
What if Jerry and Newman from Seinfeld, of the cats, of course, were both the hero and the fool and the villain of Seinfeld. And what if you retold the whole series from the perspective of Newman and not Jerry as the hero? Wouldn't that be funny? I wonder if someone's done that before, because if not, I think I might have a play on my hands. Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't, sometimes you need to fly into the astral and sometimes you need grounding.
Riordan O'Regan discusses the need to share his experiences with ADD, emphasizing the importance of understanding the different types of ADD and how it impacts life. He highlights the chaos and disorganization that ADD individuals often face, using personal anecdotes to illustrate the struggle. O'Regan seeks to translate his PhD research into relatable material, balancing scientific information with personal stories to help others feel less alone. He also touches on the psychological impact of neglect or overemphasis in childhood, suggesting that these experiences can contribute to ADD. O'Regan aims to express these insights in a way that is both engaging and vulnerable, exploring the balance between vulnerability and exhibitionism.
Action Items:
Find a way to express ADD experiences to others in a engaging, vulnerable way that balances sharing experience with not making it about themselves.
Outline:
Understanding and Sharing the ADD Experience
Riordan O'Regan expresses the need to share his experiences with ADD, whether it becomes part of a play or a separate play, or a newsletter. He emphasizes the importance of others understanding the different types of ADD and how it relates to life, especially his nomadic existence.
Riordan discusses the daily struggle of losing items and the metaphor it represents for people with ADD, highlighting the intolerable nature of this experience.
He mentions listening to Andy's J. Pizza’s story, which made him realize he is not alone, and stresses the importance of sharing such experiences to help others understand and heal.
Translating PhD Journal into Relatable Content
Riordan asks for help in translating his PhD journal into material that people can relate to, avoiding lectures or information overload. He aims to provide enough science to provide a foundation for his experiences while making it relatable to others.
The challenge is to balance sharing his experience with the need for others to look at him, which is also a part of the ADD experience. He discusses the importance of adult attention and how neglect or overemphasis can affect individuals with ADD.
Balancing Vulnerability and Exhibitionism
Riordan talks about the need to express his experiences in a way that is engaging and vulnerable, without overwhelming others. He mentions the importance of finding a balance between vulnerability and exhibitionism, using metaphors like dominance and submission.
The concept of the universe's power bottom and empowered submission is introduced, emphasizing the need for giving up enough while retaining boundaries.
He highlights the importance of having a "safe word" or a sense of safety in sharing his experiences.
Transcript:
I also really need to make it work. I don't know if this is going to be part of the play. Maybe there's a whole separate play about it. I don't know if it's a well, it's also a newsletter, for sure. I need to talk about the Add experience. And I think other people need to know what I've discovered, because it was revolutionary to me that there are different kinds of ADD and like, it explains so much about life, and I think so many people can relate to this. Like, I mean, as within so without, and my nomadic existence is just really like an expression of what's going on the inside, which is like, Can everything not be a chaotic mess all the time? Can I just fucking find something for once? Can I just know where something is? Can I not be spending half of every day, tearing through fucking bags, dumping everything out, trying to find something that was probably right under my nose the whole time. I mean, it's a metaphor for life, and we all do it to some extent. But like with the Add experience, it really becomes like intolerable and I mean, I know because of listening to Andy's story yesterday that I'm not alone because he shared it, and so the more of us share it, the more of us can understand and heal. So I ask for help in translating what's in my PhD journal into some material that people can relate to that makes them feel less alone, and that's not a lecture, and that's not an information overload, but that does bring in enough of the science to be helpful, yeah, to give the foundation for some of What I'm experiencing,
but like also make it relatable and yeah, like finding that balance as well between sharing my experience and needing people to look at me, but like that being a part of the Add thing too, is that you actually do need the adult to look at you. You actually do just need the adult to stand there because you didn't get the proper gazing, because you either got too much or not enough. Too much, not enough, kids guaranteed to flip your lid. You're my world. You're a piece of shit, narcissist and codependent. This is one condition that creates it, but it's anytime there is neglect or over. Emphasis, yeah, this is what creates this. This is that add shit. It's no one's fault, we're not guilty. Or what is it? Everyone's guilty and no one's to blame, or is it the other way around? I think it's the same. It's no one's fault. It's happened to everyone,
but yeah, so I need to find a way to express that to people in a way that's engaging and vulnerable. And including welcoming in and not dumping, yeah, finding that balance being vulnerability and exhibitionism. So I guess it all still comes back to dominance and submission being the universe's power bottom and powered submission, giving up enough while retaining boundaries, having a safe word, ding, ding. There it is. What safe word do you need?
