8 Kame / from I to we

The channeling usually ends with, according to the transcription, “I.”

This time, it ended with “we.”

Symbiotically. It’s the way everything is moving. Ayni. I am because you’re living. Mychorrizal, fungi and trees living in community. My teachers coming in to help me through every dimensional plane and in every manifestation. But the invitation, through all of it, the message that keeps playing on repeat is:

trust yourself.

you are the teacher. you are the medicine. consult others, but follow your gut, kid.

Audio and Summary / Transcript:

Yeah, I need to add something about that, about ash and Acacia to that honor your teachers, the healers, the teachers that come through direct experience, that speak directly to us, the plants and the fungi, the medicines themselves, the natural world, the moon, the sun, the stars, these are just as real, just as alive, just as embodied and in soul as anything in a human container. And even more powerful for being archetypal, timeless, larger than life, that which persists across cultures, geographic borders, through the centuries and dimensions, speaking to our souls in the language of images we Learn from human teachers. Mine are all named after trees and flowers. That's freaking cool. Which is what my name is, too. It's not the one that I was given by my true teachers, by my interdimensional kin, but it's the one that my mother who brought me into this physical dimension, the mistress of dissociation, which is actually the only way we can have an earthly experience, but also The thing that takes us away from each other in our oneness. She named me Holly, which is also a tree, which is also a death plant, just like the names of all my other teachers. Oh, my God, Ash, acacia and Lily. Huh?

We're all plants of death and transformation, dying and resurrecting over and over again. We are trees. We are plants. We are mushrooms and and we're all connected through the dimensions, and we can travel and speak to each other no matter where we are, in bodies and beyond, through the quartz crystal,

that which it resides in our bones, that which we can hold in our hands, it comes from a stone that's in the mountains, and the pyramids, those great, timeless elements, archetypes, those Teachers who speak strong and silent through our minds. By

and we used to have apprenticeships and trainings, mentorships and learnings, formal systems of initiation and wisdom gaming. But we've learned lost all this in the Anglosphere in Europe and even in the traditional cultures, people are not wanting to be a shaman anymore, because the material culture, the material culture, just like everything, is a paradox, the thing that connects us to the astral by bringing the heavens down into Earth, onto the altar, but it's also the thing that drives us from each other, when it takes on a life of its own, when the symbol becomes worshiped instead of the thing it stands for, instead of the thing behind it.

Those of us who were born with this increased sensitivity in another culture, we'd be shown, we'd enter the system of initiation and training, and we'd learn from the teachers who came before us and learn how to harness our energy and direct our attention. But instead, we're told in this material culture that we're sick and disordered, divergent, divergent to what a system liver built for us to begin with, the system designed to keep us down and keep the few in power at the very top. But the era of the dominator is over. We're in the death rattle of the patriarchy. These are just the final throws of an oligarchy that doesn't want to let go, and we'll keep clutching their dead fingers until we pry it off of them. But maybe we don't have to. I. Maybe we'll be going through the side door and do it subtly and bring love instead of animosity, instead of push and shove, we redirect the energy like kung fu or tai chi, systems of mastery and apprenticeship, systems where instead of power over, it's one entity, one shaman, which simply means the one who knows, passing their experience to The next generation. And I want to be a mentor, too for queer, trans kids and I but first, that means I have to accept myself. First that means I have to mentor the kid that resides within, inside my own heart, inside my own skull, inside this vessel, this prenda, this body, which is just a container of information and experience, sensation, memory, captured in what appears to be solid matter for a moment, a snapshot of the sky that my particles assembled under and assumed form to pretend to be this thing that was named after a tree, but is really barred and poet to the kings, but is really everything, as I screamed to Lily the day that I died, I can't be everything and who's in control? She just smiled and said, You are, and nobody is. And I found that terrifying. I said, No, no, I don't like that. I want someone else to do it, just like I've been spending my whole life going through, giving my power away to anyone who told me they had the answers, to anyone who told me they were a savior, because it's the framework I grew up in that you're a dirty worm, you're bad and wrong, you're you're an evil sinner, and you need God to redeem you. But don't worry, we've got people who can help you with that. Don't worry, we've got a priestly class. Don't worry, we'll tell you the right amount of penance to do and how to clean up that dirty soul. And by the way, don't forget to tithe 10% that part's really important. God needs to get paid. But there's never enough to wipe your soul clean. And so they took our knowledge of direct experience. They took our direct connection to the infinite. They took our ability to use the plants not used, to work with the plants and the animals and the elements and the spirits, not in bodies anymore, and the ancestors and interdimensionary explorers, they took that away from us, and they said it was their idea to begin with, and they sold our own knowledge back to us at a premium, and then told us that we weren't even worthy of it. I But we've when we forgot. We forgot that we were the living spirit. But we're remembering now, when we're helping each other awaken, and we will keep doing it, no matter what they try to take from us. Nothing's ever stopped us, not even death. It only makes us stronger. The bones that break knit back with a layer of calcium. The thing that dies is reborn is something else. Or if you've done the work, it's even more powerful. The bodhisattva path means dying. Means suffering. It means going into the darkness over and over to find the others. To be the pied piper, the psycho pumps between the worlds to find each other. Remember,

death is what we're going for. It's not what we've been told. It's not something to be feared when someone's gone, it's not something to be mourned. We celebrate their life. We celebrate the snapshot that was the unique collection of information and experience and sensation and memory captured and something that appeared to be solid just for a second under a certain arrangement of planetary bodies and elements we honor and acknowledge. Malicious, making each other real, conjuring each other into existence briefly through observation and dissociation. Dissociation what it means to be a human is to pretend to be separate for a second from the oneness. All of human existence is a dissociative experience. But from the very beginning, the medicine has always been the poison. The cure is just enough of what kills you to help you remember so you can die before you die and be reborn as the divine you always have been and

so many to is one of Our most powerful medicines, because she's an agent of dissociation. And then the psychedelics help us remember that we're the ones. And then the earth medicines ground us in that in between place like cacao, tobacco, Ayahuasca, divine are the souls that creeps between all the realms, but

we can also do all of this ourselves, because we are the medicines. They're our teachers, and we've learned from them. We've learned how to do the things that they do within our own systems, within our own universes that are contained in our altars and our apprentice, which doesn't even mean we have to give up one thing for another. All the systems are valid because we're everything, remember, and we're nothing. And that's the beauty that in the end, dying is the easy part. You just stop trying. And I mean that in the best possible way, stop trying to be somebody, stop trying to produce something. Stop trying to do all these things they told us we were supposed to do, and just be be an animal, be a vessel, be an altar, be a tree, a mushroom, a plant, an element, be queer. Be a psychopomp and journey between the realms and find the others and help them remember. They say that to be a shaman, you have to be a hollow bone. But a bone needs some meat on it, a little narrow, otherwise everything just flows through you and the only way we navigate this earthly experience and find each other and help the others remember is by dissociating just a little bit. We're doing it consciously, titrating little by little. Just like they turn the lights down, we turn them back on and suddenly we see what's been here the whole time, our indwelling divinity. We.