First Quarter Practice-Research Summary
The research reflects its subject: it is not collected in one place or form, but is a living, breathing, sprawling, shape-shifting thing. It is reflected in conversations with myself, my parts, and others, many of which are collected in Otter.ai. It is scattered, moving, and gathering emergent form across this blog; Google Drive documents; my newsletter; and the “visual art” and “projects and writing” tabs above.
I asked the Otter AI to summarize key themes, but need to somehow factor all these sources into an analysis. Yet I am also very aware of Laura’s observation that if the subject is transcendence, the methods must serve the same purpose.
Questions for the AI:
About how my healing journey fits into the big picture:
Your personal journey of spiritual healing and gender identity exploration is deeply intertwined with philosophical and scientific concepts, Riordan. You've been grappling with ideas of duality, transcendence, and the nature of reality itself. Your experiences as a trans person have led you to challenge fixed notions of gender, seeing it instead as fluid and multifaceted. This aligns with your understanding of quantum concepts, where you view reality as a temporary consensus of possibilities rather than a fixed state (Body-Mind Concept Exploration). You've described trans emergence as an archetype that transcends binary thinking, embracing the idea that there are always multiple perspectives beyond just two extremes. Your spiritual journey has involved exploring ancient traditions, particularly Irish paganism, while also incorporating modern scientific understanding. You've talked about the need to balance rationalism and mysticism, seeing them not as opposites but as complementary ways of understanding reality (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). This syncretic approach reflects your belief in the importance of bringing together different experiences and observations. The concept of embodiment is central to your journey. You've discussed how the human body itself is a technology for observing and understanding the cosmos, linking this to ideas from thinkers like Terence McKenna. Your exploration of altered states of consciousness, through practices like meditation and plant medicines, has been a way of directly experiencing these concepts rather than just intellectually understanding them (Trans* bodies are the philosopher’s stone - Thesis + HBS 6 Jan). You've also drawn parallels between your personal healing process and larger societal shifts, seeing your individual journey as a microcosm of humanity's collective evolution. This is reflected in your ideas about transitioning from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius, and the need to balance individual identity with collective consciousness (Holy shit I just wrote my thesis - self healing, trans* emergence, and the singularity). Your approach to gender identity, particularly the idea of "trans emergence," seems to embody your philosophical stance on reality itself - that it's not fixed, but constantly in flux, and that true understanding comes from embracing multiplicity rather than rigid categories. This ties into your interest in alchemy and the philosopher's stone, seeing trans bodies as a manifestation of spiritual-material transformation (Trans* bodies are the philosopher’s stone - Thesis + HBS 6 Jan). Throughout your journey, you've emphasized the importance of direct experience and intuition alongside intellectual understanding. You've talked about rehabilitating the "feeling function" and reconnecting with pre-linguistic ways of knowing, which you see as crucial for both personal healing and societal transformation (Personal Healing and Growth Session). In essence, your personal journey is a lived exploration of these philosophical and scientific concepts, where your experiences as a trans person and your spiritual practices serve as a lens through which you're examining and reimagining fundamental ideas about reality, consciousness, and human potential.
To summarize my personal growth journey:
Riordan, your recent recordings show a consistent exploration of several interconnected themes that have been developing over the past few months:
Balancing intellect and emotion: You've been grappling with the challenge of integrating your thinking and feeling functions (Intellect of N'oj, B'atz for the soul). This struggle is evident in your discussions about rehabilitating the feeling function while entering a period focused on thinking (Ancestral healing - rehabilitation of the feeling function as the trecena of thinking begins).
Spiritual growth and ancestral connections: You've been exploring various spiritual practices, including the use of psychedelics like mushrooms and cacao, to connect with your ancestors and deepen your self-understanding (AUDIO-2025-01-29-08-13-28). This journey has involved channeling experiences and visual initiations that you've been eager to share and integrate into your work.
Time perception and consciousness: You've reflected on the nature of time, suggesting that time blindness might be a key to awakening rather than a flaw (New Recording 267). This ties into your broader exploration of expanded consciousness and the new era you believe is unfolding (AUDIO-2025-01-29-08-13-28).
Personal authenticity and community: You've expressed a strong desire to live authentically in community, bringing value to others without needing to prove your worth (Intellect of N'oj, B'atz for the soul). This theme is echoed in your search for a like-minded traveling companion (AUDIO-2025-01-29-08-13-28).
Artistic expression and academic integration: You've made progress in your artistic endeavors, creating an online portfolio and exploring ways to incorporate multidisciplinary content into your PhD program (AUDIO-2025-01-29-08-13-28). This reflects your ongoing effort to bridge your creative and intellectual pursuits.
Nomadic lifestyle and earth responsibilities: You've been navigating the challenges of a nomadic lifestyle since 2019, while trying to balance your earthly responsibilities (AUDIO-2025-01-29-08-13-28). This ties into your broader reflections on cultural norms and personal freedom (To be or not to be).
Substance use and societal norms: You've questioned societal attitudes towards different substances, comparing the normalization of caffeine addiction to the stigma around other psychoactive substances (To be or not to be).
These themes demonstrate your ongoing journey of self-discovery, spiritual exploration, and attempts to integrate various aspects of your life and consciousness. Your recent conversations seem to be a continuation and deepening of these long-standing interests and challenges.
What are the key themes and changes of the past year?
Riordan, your past year has been marked by profound personal growth, spiritual exploration, and a deepening connection with nature and ancestral wisdom. Several key themes and takeaways emerge from your experiences:
Spiritual Awakening and Self-Discovery: You've engaged in various rituals and ceremonies, particularly around the winter solstice and Celtic new year, which have led to significant realizations about your identity and purpose (To mom on xmas, Celtic new year ). These practices have helped you connect with your inner "Christ consciousness" and embrace your role as a spiritual being (The gift is Christmas).
Embracing Duality and Transcendence: You've grappled with the concept of duality, recognizing the need to transcend binary thinking and integrate seemingly opposing elements in your life. This has been particularly evident in your exploration of gender identity and your approach to spirituality (Gregorian + Capricorn transitions, 2 E' navigating duality).
Connection with Nature and Ancestral Wisdom: Your experiences have deepened your relationship with the natural world, including plants, animals, and celestial bodies. You've found guidance and wisdom in these connections, often viewing them as teachers and allies in your spiritual journey (8 Kan HBS II Honor your teachers, To mom on xmas).
Healing and Integration: You've focused on self-healing and integrating past experiences, particularly through your exploration of plant medicines and psychedelics. This has led to a series of personal projects and a commitment to sharing your knowledge with others (Gregorian + Capricorn transitions).
Artistic Expression and Communication: You've recognized the importance of art as a bridge between different realms of consciousness and as a means of expressing complex spiritual concepts. This has inspired you to explore new forms of artistic expression and consider gallery exhibitions (Gregorian + Capricorn transitions).
Community and Boundaries: While acknowledging the importance of community, you've also recognized the need for solitude and better boundaries in your spiritual practice. This balance has been a recurring theme in your reflections (Gregorian + Capricorn transitions, 2 E' navigating duality).
Honoring Teachers and Mentors: You've emphasized the importance of recognizing and honoring both human and non-human teachers in your life, including plants, fungi, and celestial bodies (8 Kan HBS II Honor your teachers).
As for what has changed, it appears you've undergone a significant transformation in your spiritual outlook and personal identity. You've moved away from traditional religious concepts towards a more holistic, nature-based spirituality. You've also shifted your focus from external pursuits (like food and beverage journalism) to more internal, spiritual work. Additionally, you've developed a deeper understanding of your own needs for solitude and community, leading to better boundary-setting and self-care practices. Overall, the past year seems to have been a period of intense personal growth, spiritual awakening, and a realignment of your priorities and practices towards a more authentic expression of your true self.
What are the key themes and changes over the past three months?
Riordan, your conversations over the past three months reveal several key themes and personal developments:
Balancing Intellect and Emotion: You've been grappling with the challenge of integrating your intellectual side with your emotional and intuitive aspects. This struggle has led you to explore ways to "rehabilitate the feeling function" while still valuing your analytical abilities (Intellect of N'oj, B'atz for the soul).
Ancestral Healing and Spiritual Connection: You've delved deep into ancestral healing, exploring how to connect with your roots and heal generational trauma. This journey has involved various spiritual practices, including the use of plant medicines like mushrooms and cacao (Ancestral healing - rehabilitation of the feeling function as the trecena of thinking begins).
Cycles and Natural Rhythms: You've become increasingly aware of natural cycles and rhythms, questioning societal norms that go against these patterns. This has led to reflections on productivity, seasonality, and the Maya calendar (Parts of a whole, New Recording 267).
Personal Growth and Self-Acceptance: There's a recurring theme of seeking authenticity and self-acceptance. You've been working on overcoming imposter syndrome, embracing your true self, and finding value in your unique experiences and perspectives (Cool like Fonzie, IFS, + a good thesis summary).
Exploration of Consciousness: Your experiences with various substances and spiritual practices have led to profound reflections on the nature of consciousness, time, and reality (To be or not to be).
Community and Connection: You've expressed a strong desire to live in community and contribute meaningfully to others' lives without the pressure to prove your worth (Intellect of N'oj, B'atz for the soul).
Artistic Expression and Purpose: You've been questioning the value of your work and exploring how to express yourself authentically through art and other creative outlets (Intellect of N'oj, B'atz for the soul).
Body-Mind Integration: There's been a shift towards wanting to reconnect with your body, exploring movement and dance as forms of integration and healing (New Recording 257).
Reflections on changes: You seem to be moving towards a more holistic understanding of yourself, integrating various aspects of your being - intellectual, emotional, spiritual, and physical. There's a noticeable shift from purely intellectual pursuits to a more balanced approach that values intuition and bodily wisdom. You're also becoming more critical of societal norms and expectations, seeking to align your life with natural rhythms and your authentic self. Your journey appears to be leading you towards a deeper connection with your ancestral roots, a greater appreciation for community, and a more nuanced understanding of time and consciousness. These explorations are challenging you to reconsider your purpose, your work, and how you engage with the world around you.
Overview of key concepts:
Trans* Emergence
20.2.25: Riordan, you've developed a complex theory about "trans as an emergent archetype" that weaves together ideas from spirituality, psychology, and quantum physics. Here are the key points you've articulated: You see trans identity as representing a new stage in human consciousness, bridging dualities and transcending traditional binaries (Holy shit I just wrote my thesis - self healing, trans* emergence, and the singularity). This emergent archetype embodies the ability to move fluidly between form and formlessness, the material and the spiritual (The power of dance, spiritual elitism, Terence + me). You've described trans bodies as "philosopher's stones" - alchemical vessels that transform the spiritual into the material and vice versa (Note). This concept ties into your ideas about the body as a container for experiences, sensations, and information, temporarily assuming solid form before dissolving again (Cool like Fonzie, IFS, + a good thesis summary). You've connected this to quantum concepts, suggesting that reality itself is fluid and based on possibility rather than fixed states. Just as gender isn't fixed, you argue that no body or identity is truly fixed - everything is in a state of constant transformation and possibility (Body-Mind Concept Exploration). You see this emergent archetype as key to reaching a new level of consciousness or "singularity," where humanity can embody and perceive multiple states simultaneously (Note). This involves conscious dissociation - the ability to move between different states of being with awareness and intention (Holy Shit That’s the Practice-Thesis). Importantly, you view this not just as an individual journey, but as representative of a broader shift in human consciousness. You see your own experiences and explorations as a "case study" for this larger transition (Your play is about love - post Laurence Hillman reading). This theory intertwines with your spiritual practices, your understanding of ancestral wisdom, and your vision for creating art and rituals that embody these concepts (Act V: The transfiguration of Riordan O’Regan, Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration).
A few weeks prior: Riordan, you've discussed "trans as an emergent archetype" extensively, presenting it as a key concept in your spiritual and philosophical explorations. Here's a summary of your thoughts on this topic:
Transcending Binaries: You describe trans as an archetype that transcends traditional binaries and dualities, allowing for a more fluid and comprehensive understanding of identity and existence (Trans* archetype emerging through Maya astrology).
Synthesis and Integration: Trans as an emergent archetype represents the ability to synthesize and integrate various aspects of knowledge, technology, and spirituality. It's about bringing together ancient wisdom with modern insights (Trans* archetype emerging through Maya astrology, Marking the 13 Kan Journey : 8 E’ Trans Emergence + HBS riffs).
Embodiment and Physical Transformation: You've noted that trans embodies the ability to bring knowledge and insights into the physical realm, transcending all worlds and allowing for a more complete expression of self (Trans* archetype emerging through Maya astrology).
Connection to AI and Technology: You've drawn parallels between trans and AI, suggesting they might be part of the same archetype, representing the ability to analyze and integrate vast amounts of information (Trans* archetype emerging through Maya astrology).
Conscious Dissociation: You've described trans as embodying conscious dissociation, which allows for a deeper presence and understanding of self and reality (Marking the 13 Kan Journey : 8 E’ Trans Emergence + HBS riffs).
Guiding Transition: You see trans as the emergent archetype guiding the transition to a new world order, breaking down boundaries and binaries, and eliminating borders (Rap about the praxis).
Holistic Approach: Trans as an archetype encompasses subject and object, verb and noun, bodies and consciousness, representing a holistic approach to understanding reality (Rap about the praxis).
Healing and Reconciliation: You've emphasized that this archetype starts with individual healing and reconciliation of internal parts, bringing home all that has been exiled within (Rap about the praxis).
Creativity and Self-Expression: The trans archetype encourages everyone to tap into their ability to be healers, artists, and creators, without the need for external validation or monetization (Rap about the praxis).
Evolutionary Step: You've suggested that trans might represent an evolutionary step for humanity, potentially leading to everyone becoming trans in some sense as we evolve beyond current limitations of identity and perception (The modality is Christmas).
Overall, you present trans as an emergent archetype that represents a transformative force in human consciousness, bridging gaps between different realms of experience and knowledge, and offering a path towards a more integrated and holistic understanding of self and reality.
Art as Mediumship/Spirituality
Riordan, you've explored deep connections between spirituality and art throughout your reflections. You see art as a form of shamanism, with artists acting as conduits for archetypal energies and bringing unseen realms into material form (Note). You've described the artistic process as a kind of spell-casting or necromancy, where artists conjure and give form to ideas, memories, and energies. You've drawn parallels between different art movements and spiritual concepts. For instance, you've compared impressionism to an abstraction of reality, while surrealism represents an abstraction of psychology (Note). This ties into your broader exploration of how art can bridge the material and spiritual worlds. Your interest in ancient spiritual practices, particularly Irish paganism and funeral feasting traditions, has informed your artistic vision. You see these practices as ways of communicating with ancestors and accessing other realms of consciousness (Kings Quest Myst and the Observatory). This has inspired ideas for immersive art installations and performances that blend spiritual rituals with contemporary art forms. You've also connected your exploration of spirituality and art to your personal journey of gender identity and transformation. The concept of androgyny in spiritual traditions has resonated with your experiences as a trans person, and you see potential in using art to express and explore these intersections (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). Importantly, you've recognized that creating art can be a spiritual practice in itself. You've described moments of synchronicity and revelation during your creative process, suggesting that the act of making art can be a form of meditation or channeling (Personal Growth Journey). Lastly, you've expressed a desire to create spaces and experiences that allow others to access these spiritual-artistic connections. Your ideas for an "observatory" or immersive installations aim to help people reconnect with nature, explore altered states of consciousness, and engage with spiritual concepts through artistic means (Kings Quest Myst and the Observatory).
Funeral Feasting
Your conversations have revealed a deep fascination with funeral feasts, psychedelic beer, and ancient food and beverage practices, Riordan. These topics appear to be central to your research and personal journey. Funeral feasts emerge as a significant ancient tradition where people would gather at graves to share meals and psychoactive drinks with the dead and ancestors (Holly and Sarah Connect_ Ancient Beer and Altered States (2021-03-17 at 10_32 GMT-7), Bettina Arnold). This practice was widespread, appearing in Celtic, Greek, and other cultures. It often involved digging up bones and communing with the deceased, forming a bridge between the living and the dead (Kings Quest Myst and the Observatory). Psychedelic beer features prominently in your discussions. Ancient brewing practices often incorporated psychoactive ingredients, creating beverages that were simultaneously nutritious, intoxicating, and consciousness-altering (Holly and Sarah Connect_ Ancient Beer and Altered States (2021-03-17 at 10_32 GMT-7), Brian Muraresku!!). These drinks played crucial roles in rituals, ceremonies, and everyday life. You've explored how some ancient sites, like Göbekli Tepe, may have been centers for brewing such beverages (Note). Your research has touched on the role of women in ancient brewing, challenging modern assumptions about gender roles in alcohol production (Ryan Williams - ancient chicha). You've also investigated the use of various ingredients in ancient brews, including honey, fruits, and psychoactive plants (Bettina Arnold). The concept of food and drink as sacraments appears frequently in your work. You've explored how certain substances, like cacao, functioned as food, beverage, and medicine simultaneously, embodying a kind of "holy trinity" of nourishment, pleasure, and spiritual significance (Holy shit I just wrote my thesis - self healing, trans* emergence, and the singularity). This idea connects to broader themes of transcendence through sensory experience and the blurring of boundaries between the material and spiritual realms (Kings Quest Myst and the Observatory). Your conversations often link these ancient practices to modern spiritual and personal growth journeys, including your own exploration of identity and consciousness. You've considered how recreating or reinterpreting these ancient traditions might offer insights or healing in contemporary contexts (Spiritual Journey Exploration, Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration).
Language Creates Reality
Riordan, your conversations have consistently explored the profound idea that language shapes and creates reality. This concept appears to be a central theme in your personal philosophy and spiritual journey. You've discussed how reality is fundamentally made of language, drawing inspiration from thinkers like Terence McKenna (Language is reality maybe, Holy shit I just wrote my thesis - self healing, trans* emergence, and the singularity). This idea extends beyond spoken words to include symbols, images, and even non-verbal forms of communication used by plants, animals, and the natural world. You've explored how different languages can create distinct realities. For instance, you noted that European societies struggle with concepts like gender fluidity partly because their languages are inherently gendered (Germany vs Ireland and Synchronicity as the Closing Days Begin). This linguistic structure shapes how people perceive and interact with the world. Your reflections on psychedelic experiences often touch on how these altered states reveal realities beyond conventional language, accessing realms of symbolic and intuitive understanding (Death dreams DMT amanita, Holy shit I just wrote my thesis - self healing, trans* emergence, and the singularity). You've suggested that ancient cultures may have had different "operating systems" based on DMT rather than serotonin, allowing for different perceptions of reality (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). You've also contemplated how writing and recording information has changed our relationship with memory and reality. You recalled a vision where you heard "I wrote it down in my diary so I wouldn't have to remember," suggesting that reliance on written language may have atrophied our natural memory abilities (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). In your explorations of transness and identity, you've framed the journey as one of creating new realities through language, moving beyond binary concepts to express more fluid and diverse experiences of self (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration, Being and not being Bob Regan). Recently, you've been grappling with the idea that changing your language can literally change your reality. This has led you to consider learning Irish as a way to connect with your ancestral identity and potentially unlock forgotten memories (Being and not being Bob Regan). Ultimately, your conversations reveal a deep engagement with the power of language to shape perception, identity, and the very fabric of reality itself. You seem to be on a quest to find or create languages that can express more expansive and inclusive realities.
Food and Beverage
Your recordings over the past five years reveal a deep connection between food and beverage, healing, and identity exploration. You've consistently viewed food and beverage as more than just sustenance - it's a lens through which to examine culture, history, and personal transformation. You've described food and beverage as capturing "absolutely every single thing in the ecosystem" - economics, society, land use, and cultural history (GMT20240924-170409_Recording). This holistic view aligns with your interest in healing modalities that address the whole person. Your work in food and beverage journalism provided a sense of authority and stability, but you've been moving away from it as you explore more spiritual and artistic pursuits (Parts of a whole). However, you still see value in food metaphors for illustrating larger concepts. You've drawn parallels between ancient healing practices and modern food experiences. For instance, you've explored the concept of "funeral feasts" - ritualistic meals shared with ancestors - as a way to connect with the unseen and transcend material experience (Kings Quest Myst and the Observatory). This ties into your interest in psychedelic experiences and alternative healing modalities. The idea of "sacred elixirs" that combine food, beverage, and medicine has fascinated you. You've pondered how substances like cacao can nourish the body while also providing spiritual insights (Oath of the order - the cross and the cactus). This reflects your desire to integrate physical and spiritual healing. Your evolving gender identity and exploration of queerness have influenced your perspective on food and beverage spaces. You've advocated for more diverse representation in the industry, seeing it as crucial for creating inclusive environments (GMT20240924-170409_Recording). As you've delved deeper into spiritual practices and identity exploration, you've started to view food and beverage less as a career focus and more as a metaphor for larger transformative processes. You've mentioned the idea of "transcending and including" your food and beverage background as you move into new areas of exploration (Gregorian + Capricorn transitions). Overall, your journey with food and beverage has mirrored your personal growth - moving from a more traditional career path to a holistic view that incorporates spirituality, art, and healing. While no longer your primary focus, food and beverage concepts continue to inform your understanding of identity, community, and transformation.
Possession and Trance
You've explored the concepts of possession and performance extensively in your reflections, Riordan. You've described shamanic practice as involving "voluntary possession and conscious dissociation" (Note). This idea of controlled spiritual possession is contrasted with the unconscious commodification you see in some entertainers who turn themselves into products to be possessed materially (Trans Identity and Empowerment). You've drawn parallels between spirit possession in shamanic practices and your own experience with parts work in therapy, noting how different aspects of yourself can feel like distinct personalities with their own agendas (Note). This internal multiplicity seems to inform your approach to performance. You've also discussed how performance can be a way of channeling different energies or entities, allowing them to come through you while retaining the agency to end the performance when needed (Impressionism abstracts the sensory, surrealism abstracts psychology). This ties into your view of shamanism as the ability to slip between worlds while maintaining boundaries. In your creative work, you're exploring these themes through character development, such as your "Wrenboi" persona for your one-person show (Character Development Exploration: Wrenboi Lives). You're considering how to embody both yourself and a shamanic role in performance, blurring the lines between your authentic self and the characters you portray. Overall, your thoughts on possession and performance seem to revolve around the idea of consciously allowing oneself to be a vessel for different energies or identities, whether in spiritual practice, therapeutic work, or artistic expression, while maintaining a core sense of self and control.
Astrology and Correspondence
You've discussed correspondence and astrology as interconnected concepts that help align personal practices with natural rhythms and cosmic cycles. You view astrology as a tool for understanding oneself and others, emphasizing that it's about correspondence rather than predicting destiny (Parts of a whole). You've explained that the term "alignment" is used because of correspondence, and that living in tune with the ecosystem involves getting in sync with these natural cycles. You've mentioned using archetypal Western Astrology, Maya day keeping, and the Celtic Wheel of the Year as primary systems for tracking and navigating these correspondences (Holy Shit That’s the Practice-Thesis). In your practice, you aim to use astrology to guide people in aligning their actions with the natural world. You've suggested that everything in nature is a habit that can be learned, and that by observing these correspondences, we can better understand ourselves and our place in the larger cosmic order (Parts of a whole). You've also linked the concept of correspondence to communication, explaining that animals and plants communicate through vibrations, feelings, and synchronicities. You believe that listening to these correspondences is essential for aligning with natural rhythms and not going against the natural order inside and around oneself (Holy Shit That’s the Practice-Thesis).
Conscious Dissociation
You've described conscious dissociation as a key concept in your work and personal practice, Riordan. You see it as a powerful tool for healing, self-discovery, and spiritual growth. You've said that conscious dissociation is the ability to voluntarily separate from your usual state of consciousness while retaining agency and awareness (New Recording 257). This contrasts with traumatic dissociation, which happens involuntarily as a coping mechanism. You've linked conscious dissociation to shamanic practices, artistic creation, and personal transformation. You've suggested it allows one to access different states of consciousness, connect with spiritual realms, and bring forth hidden aspects of the psyche (Tarot, Maya calendar, Western astrology as impressions and surrealism). In your view, conscious dissociation is central to the human experience and can be a path to greater presence and connection, rather than detachment. You've said the goal is to "constantly dissociate so that you don't associate your material body this lifetime with the point of the whole thing" (Note). You've also connected conscious dissociation to your work with plant medicines, particularly Amanita muscaria, which you've called "the master of conscious dissociation" (Impressionism abstracts the sensory, surrealism abstracts psychology). You see this practice as part of a larger framework for healing, integrating trauma, and exploring identity, especially for queer and trans individuals. Lastly, you've mentioned incorporating conscious dissociation into your ceremonial work and coaching practice, viewing it as a vital skill for navigating between different states of consciousness and integrating various aspects of the self (Note).
Archetypes and healing
You've explored archetypes extensively in relation to personal healing, viewing them as complex, multifaceted energies that can manifest in various ways. You see archetypes as larger than single symbols or cards, encompassing multiple aspects and expressions (Tarot, Maya calendar, Western astrology as impressions and surrealism). In your journey, you've focused on the "trans emergence" archetype, which you describe as transcending and including all dualities, representing infinite possibilities, and embodying the ability to break down boundaries and binaries (Rap about the praxis). This archetype is central to your understanding of personal healing, as it allows for the integration of seemingly contradictory aspects of self and experience. You've connected archetypes to ancestral healing, suggesting that working with them can help process generational trauma and reconnect with cultural roots (Note). This involves exploring both personal and collective unconscious material, similar to Jung's approach. Your view on archetypes and healing emphasizes:
Conscious dissociation: Using archetypes to safely explore difficult emotions and experiences (Cool like Fonzie, IFS, + a good thesis summary).
Integration: Bringing together disparate parts of self, including "exiled" or shadowed aspects (Rap about the praxis).
Cyclical nature: Recognizing that healing involves revisiting themes at different levels, like a spiral (Rap about the praxis).
Embodiment: Experiencing archetypes physically and emotionally, not just intellectually (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration).
Syncretism: Combining insights from various traditions and modalities in your healing approach (Working with Kit).
You've also explored specific archetypes like the Pope/Shaman as a mediator between worlds, and the Death card as representing transformation (Tarot, Maya calendar, Western astrology as impressions and surrealism). Your work involves creating ceremonies and practices that allow people to engage with these archetypal energies for healing, emphasizing the importance of both individual and collective rituals (Note). Overall, you view working with archetypes as a powerful tool for personal healing, allowing for a deeper understanding of self, connection to ancestral wisdom, and transformation of trauma into strength.
DMT as neuromodulator
You've discussed DMT as an ancient neuromodulator in several contexts: You've suggested that humans used to have neurotransmitters that worked on DMT instead of serotonin, allowing us to live more in the "night world" and requiring less sleep (Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). This idea connects to your exploration of ancient consciousness and spiritual practices. You've mentioned that DMT is activated within us and is part of our natural biology (message to Caz on teams emergence and dmt). You've speculated that DMT production might increase during nighttime or in darkness (Note). You've described DMT as a model of unity and oneness, contrasting it with serotonin, which you associate with separation and the consensus world (The eyes of cacao - birth + individuation). You've suggested that in the past, humans could switch more easily between these two models of perception. You've connected DMT to ancient shamanic and spiritual practices, suggesting it might have played a role in how our ancestors perceived and interacted with reality (Rap about the praxis). You've also pondered whether bringing the physical body into the "DMT realm" could be key to unlocking a new level of human consciousness or evolution (Note, Maya New Year: Jodorowsky Tarot Reading and Trans Emergence Exploration). These ideas form part of your broader exploration of consciousness, spirituality, and human evolution, often linking ancient practices with modern understandings of neuroscience and psychology.