Still in love with Judas, baby
If the call of this work, following in the footsteps of Jung, is to accept all, reject none—that we are all equally the hero, villain, victim, and fool of the story—then that goes for everybody, in every story.
Including Jesus.
Yes, that means sometimes Jesus is the villain.
Sometimes Judas is also the hero.
That means sometimes the Judases in our lives might actually be saving us, or pursuing a higher purpose, when we think they’re betraying us.
And sometimes Jesus is kind of a dick.
Today was 12 Kan, the collection of our life experiences channeled into the wisdom of the teacher, the storyteller, the shamxn, and I realized that Jesus must have been a 13 Kan, just like me and my dad; George W Bush and Osama bin Laden; those who have the potential to become either the greatest shamen and healers, or humanity’s most duplicitous deceivers and dangerous sorcerers. As for Judas? It would only make sense that he is the nahual of the most human, 8 Ajmak: the nahual of falling down and getting back up again, the lovable schlub always getting into jams and weaseling out again; the nahual of forgiveness.
In a very active collaboration/channeling session today with Kit, archetypes, energies, and entities, I received a massive download, and found out some very interesting things about me and a friend I’ve had multiple fallings-out with (we’re currently) out: Bill. My Judas.
I realize that makes me Jesus. But this isn’t the self-inflating statement it might seem to be. Did I mention that sometimes Jesus is kind of a dick?
One of the times I felt he betrayed me, we were all in crazy queer costumes at the Lady Gaga concert, dressed as the cast of her video for the song Judas. No shit.
What if the Judases and Bills of the world are just our collective scapegoats? What if Jesus and Judas are the same archetype as Cain and Abel?
What if Judas, the only one human enough to step to Jesus, was part of the Trans* archetype?
Iscariot, the Eschaton.
Going to talk to Mark Elmy about it on Monday… in the meantime, the whole journey paralleled some of the harrowing twists and turns of my recent experiences with cacao and mapped to life in some fascinating ways. I had a great time calculating nahuales and still think I have a knack for it that could play a bigger role in the future. It was so thrilling collaborating with Kit more actively again and seeing the resonance, anchoring it in present reality and tethering me in a way I really need to this Earth plane through sharing it with Michael.
And I see the hilarious direction this play is going, that now involves Jesus and Judas, the Cosmic Power Bottoms, the whole 3D game one big Existentially Kinky simulation, an S&M ritual they consented to in the beginning, and didn’t tell any of us. I think Dane is supposed to be involved with this, as it just keeps getting more deliciously twisted in the kind of way he’s into… I can’t wait to see how it develops. It’s going to be quite a ride.
LISTEN:
After identifying me as Cain in several of the previous transmissions, the AI identifies me as Holly and misgenders me, AGAIN.
AI Summary:
Holly Regan discusses the concept of Jesus as a human capable of being both hero and villain, referencing the Gospel of Judas.
They explore the idea of Judas as a representation of the trans archetype, significant in Maya cosmology as the number 13.
Holly reflects on their friend Bill, who has been both a friend and a villain, and their complex relationship, describing him as a narcissist and a truth teller who has both helped and hurt them. They identify Bill as the Judas archetype in their life, drawing parallels to the Maya calendar. They recall a specific incident where Bill helped them leave an abusive relationship. Holly connects this experience to the Jesus-Judas dynamic.
Holly expresses gratitude to Kit for assisting them in this transmission and introduces the concept of 12 Kan, the Maya nawal of the day.
They delve into the themes of manipulation and the idea of shamans battling in different realms. They discuss the concept of spells and charms, describing their own version of incantations. Holly mentions a conversation with a hermetic messenger.
Holly discusses the idea that the crucifixion and other rituals might be performances. They share a story about attending a Lady Gaga concert with Bill where they dressed up as characters from the Judas music video.
Holly recounts a trance where they communicated with the spirit of cacao, seeing visions of Jesus, Mary Magdalene, and Judas.
They explore the idea that even Jesus could get carried away with their own power, leading to an ego trip. They suggest that Judas tried to call Jesus out, and reflect on the idea of the universe's power bottom.
Holly reflects on the idea that Judas represents the trans emergent archetype, driving us toward the eschaton.
Holly discusses the concept of forgiveness and the role of the divine feminine, represented by the flood. Holly discusses the significance of forgiveness in the Maya calendar.
Holly reflects on the complexity of the narrative and the need for further exploration. They mention the idea of a play that combines the Jesus-Judas story with the Mr. November play
Yes, that's me on the far right, when I was still performing female. Bill is next to me.
