Luckdragon Vision - 13 T'oj '25 Mystical Exploration
A beautiful vision of oneness washed over me when receiving this today; I felt so held and supported by the space and the entities in all dimensions that brought me to this space of holding. The power of the past few days’ arrival in Berlin is still taking root and settling in my bones, I haven’t even processed it enough to share it here — but suffice it to say that the work is working, I’m growing up, I’m arriviing, and already I can’t conceive of ever not coming to Berlin.
I think I’m supposed to try and leave here. As soon as I got on the airplane the noise started to quiet down and I heard the phrase: “London is too loud.”
Part of the reason I’ve struggled so much to express there is that for all the support of my community, there are just too many frequencies for an oversensitive instrument that’s already receiving transdimensional transmissions, it’s paralyzing, and I think I need to do some more of my personal work clearing, resolving, healing parts of self before I can really handle it there.
Plus, Pauline, my hostess with the mostess, who is working on every project and knows every person that I want to call in and move towards and could help me, because the universe is just ridiculously, embarassingly generous with me, and on the day of offerings, I strive to return the favor even a little.
I make my blog. I email the sources I forgot to contact about the zine being out. I send too-long messages to people in the Berlin Holistic Telegram group about uses of cacao that made me bristle offering invitations and the zine research. Maybe it wasn’t the best approach, but it’s the best way I know how. I need to start work on the second volume; that might be too much for today, but at least I’m getting the motivation. And I will reach out to Bettina as that will inform my approach and open other portals, I’m sure.
I will go back to the jungle, and soon. The question is when.
As I woke from a nap after reading about the Cailleach and longing for Ireland and shamanic training in my bones — something I want to do this year if I can at all make it possible — I felt a sense of not just amorphous holy longing, but missing a distinct presence, one it feels I haven’t met yet. Maybe it’s Holly, or holly, because the imagery and the symbiosis with the tree is all over these stories, and time isn’t linear, so maybe I feel like i’m missing someone I haven’t met when it’s actually my past self. Maybe it’s a part that is still to come in this lifetime or it’s the full realization of Riordan yet to arrive.
Or maybe there is a divine collaborator in a human body waiting for me, somewhere out there. I keep coming back to this whole process feeling a lot easier with an apprentice. Maybe I’m missing a lover, partner; maybe I’m missing a songwriter; maybe it’s teenage Aeden or some other queer witchy kids I’ll one day mentor. Maybe it’s a deer or squirrel or the tree I’ll dieta with when I go back to Peru. Who knows.
The important thing is, I no longer feel incomplete. Just a bit lonely. And that means I’m actually waking up now.
AI Summary
Riordan Regan discusses his mystical visions and the cultural significance of rituals, elixirs, and material practices across various civilizations. He describes a vision of a transdimensional map, likening it to Blake's double vision and Middle Earth. Regan explores the spread of cacao traditions through trade and syncretism, noting its roots in Peru and its resonance in Central America. He reflects on his role as a "death shaman," drawing from psychedelics and ancient practices to bridge the material and spiritual realms. Regan plans to further his research, particularly on Amanita and shamanic journeys, and emphasizes the importance of honoring ancestral traditions and integrating diverse perspectives in his work.
Mystical Vision and Ancestral Connections
Riordan Regan discusses the transmission from the ritual fire, linking it to the Germanic ancestors of prehistory.
He mentions the research from Tina about bees, mead, and honey, noting that every culture has its own formula for elixirs and rituals.
Riordan describes a vivid visual of being perched on a mountain, overlooking a vast landscape, which he terms as his "luck dragon vision."
He compares this vision to Blake's double vision, describing it as a map of both realms superimposed on each other, similar to Middle Earth from "The Hobbit."
Cacao's Journey and Syncretism
Riordan explains that cacao's original homeland is Peru, but the traditions that spread globally developed elsewhere.
He describes the methods of cultivation and consumption in Peru as different from those that caught on globally.
The traditions that spread were a result of trade and diffusion, not imposition by a dominant culture.
Riordan notes that the syncretic traditions of cacao spread naturally through trade networks and reciprocity.
Personal Reflections and Cultural Formula
Riordan reflects on a vision he had in 2018-2019, which he now interprets as a map of samsara, the dance between self and no self.
He considers the vision as a map of liminality and double vision, seeing all dimensions at once.
Riordan expresses interest in creating an art piece based on this vision and exploring how to bring it to life immersively.
He notes that his creative energy peaks on days traditionally associated with death, which he embraces as his role as a death shaman.
Transdimensional Travel and Psychedelics
Riordan discusses the formula for transdimensional travel, including elixir, material, space, and sound.
He emphasizes the importance of silence in rituals, noting that it can be just as powerful as music.
Riordan believes that psychedelics play a role in transdimensional travel, though he acknowledges that some people may not need them.
He plans to build on Gabriella's research into Greek priestess traditions and connect it to Germanic lands.
Research and Future Plans
Riordan plans to set up another meeting with Bettina to discuss her research on elixirs and material cultures.
He reflects on the importance of including perspectives from cultures beyond white men in his research.
Riordan aims to bring a psychedelic perspective and the elixirs of the world into his work.
He plans to explore the concept of transdimensional travel and shamanic journey, focusing on connecting with ancestors and offering his vessel as an altar.
Broken Bones and Shamanic Journey
Riordan contemplates the significance of breaking bones in shamanic journey, suggesting it might be a key to moving between realms.
He reflects on a past injury and how it might have affected his ability to travel between dimensions.
Riordan expresses a desire to apprentice with plants and fungi rather than people, emphasizing the importance of connecting with the natural world.
He plans to revisit South America and Central America, particularly Peru, to honor the origins of traditions and communicate this to his spiritual circles.
Transcript/Listen
The transmission from the ritual fire, transmission from the ancestors, the Germanic ancestors of pre history. Want me to remember the research from Bettina. It's about the bees, the mead, the honey. Every culture has its formula, and it's a variation of what Kit presented, spell, charm, trance. They've got their elixir, they've got the material culture, they've got the practice.
Maybe these are different words for the same thing, getting this really cool visual right now of being like perched on a mountain started looking out over this vast landscape that encompasses all the places I've been. This is cool as shit. This is luck dragon vision. It's like the never ending story. And this is my mystical map of the territory. Wow. Oh my god. This is so cool. I'm the luck dragon flying above, and I'm seeing the map of my territory, which is trans dimensional. Whoa, oh my god. This must be Blake's double vision. I'm seeing both realms at once, superimposed on top of each other. This is like a map of Middle Earth. This is like the freaking Hobbit shit. Whoa, this is so cool. It's a map of both realms at once.
Regan about cacao. Peru is cacao's original homeland, but that's not where the traditions that we're familiar with developed. That's not where the syncretism sprang from. You. So the methods of cultivation and consumption are very different there and now the place where the tree first walked out of, people have to learn the traditions for serving that have found resonance around the world from other people. So it's very interesting, right? Because it's like the ancestral tradition, the legacy is not the one. Yeah, that it's not the one that caught on. The one that caught on is the syncretic one. The one that caught on was the export product. The one that caught on was actually a result of trade and diffusion. I mean, that was true syncretism, because it was cultures spreading from one to another. It wasn't a dominator coming in and imposing something. It was this plant was traded naturally. It naturally diffused and spread up along these trade networks through methods of exchange, through reciprocity, I me giving and receiving naturally flowed north to Central America, where they came up with these elaborate traditions that then spread all over the world in syncretism, because there was they were on something because they found something resonant. There were other plant medicine traditions already in Central America. They didn't really need to develop one around cacao, but they didn't have that whole rainforest cabinet at their disposal in Central America and Mexico.
And we all need our cultural formula. Looking at my luck dragon map again. Oh, my God. I knew this was gonna come back. This is what I saw in that vision. Holy shit. This is exactly what I saw in that vision. God in like, 2018 2019 when I was in my place in Fremont, and I was starting to get the call for ayahuasca, and I was starting to get the call for going Nomad and leaving Seattle, wow. And I saw that map, and I I thought it was a map of Samsara, and I think it is, but I need to look more into what samsara means, the dance between self and no self. I think it just means a map of liminality. I think it actually means the map of double vision, the map of seeing all the dimensions at once. Ooh, this is an art piece I could make. That's fun. Ooh, and how could we bring that to life immersively? Ooh, that's fun. That's fun.
[re: the 13th day of the trecena in the Maya calendar is today, 13 T’oj, the nahual of payments and offerings and the number of the ancestors] See, I get more ideas on the days of the death. That's just my energy, and I think I need to just work with that today is more traditionally associated with like abundance and celebration and generation. Like my energy just doesn't work that way. Those are challenging ones for me, so I think I just need to honor that and not try to make shit on those days like the Death days are my days of creativity and generation. That's freaking cool. I like that about me. I'm a death Shaman. Fuck yeah, I'm 13 Kan [my Maya nahual], of course, I'm a death Shaman. I love that I love that I love that I love that I'm going to lean into, that I'm going to embrace that. I mean, that's what I'm studying. I'm studying cultures of death, ways of dying, because a transition framework is ultimately about dying. I knew there was a reason. I was drawn to Pete and Val last night, too, and even though they say they're not talking about mystical shit anymore, which I don't like, that makes me sad. But whatever, I had my time with them. But they did end by basically saying that it's like, it's all practice. Like, the idea is that if you're doing the work throughout your life, by the time you get to dying, you've already come through so much, you're like, Yeah, I got this. And that's the point. That's the whole trans framework.
Oh my god. I'm just having the coolest non dual experience right now. I'm in like, multiple realms at once. This is like, DMT, but, but I'm so clear because I'm just riding with mama cacao and like such a whisper of psilocybin, I don't even know if it counts. Well, okay, sorry, psilocybin, I hear, of course, you count. I'm sorry. That's not what I meant. I meant it was so small, and Amanita is here, of course, without having ingested at all. Yeah, okay, they're telling me that they're just part of me now, and I can activate them whenever I want. Oh, I got an up level. Doo. Doo, doo. Doo, yes. I got an up level. Thank you.
Oh, my God, I'm so relieved I don't need to consume so much just to be alive anymore. <BIG PAUSE FOR EMPHASIS!!!
Oh, beautiful, okay, but every culture has its formula of elixir, material, hmm, in ritual, elixir, material, ritual, the ritual I feel like inherently includes music, But I wonder if that's a separate element sound. sound elixir, space, because the land does matter. An elixir, material, space, sound, but you can do it in silence, space, ritual. I think that's what it is. And maybe the ritual includes music, but it doesn't have to, because sometimes silence is just as powerful. I think that's it. It's building on spell, charm, trance, because if you want to travel trans dimensionally, I versus just bringing the spiritual, yes, this is it. This is it. This is it. This is it. This is it. This is what I've been getting at. Kit’s got the formula for bringing the spiritual into the material. That's something that we've all been pretty well practiced in. But the trans dimensional expansion is bringing the material into the spiritual, truly dissolving the boundary between the plane so that we can travel freely, and that formula brings space into it. That formula brings elixir into it. That formula. I think psychedelics are a part of it. I really do. I think you get to the place where you don't need them, and you can just activate that within yourself. Maybe some people are already there. But there is something to the physical. If you want to bring the physical into the astral, I think you do need to actually, like, take some material into your body and use the object as well to travel.
So this is what, this is, the trans dimensional crystal travel. And this is where I need to go back to occasions, course, but one thing at a time. Yeah, yeah. And this is where I build on Gabriella’s research, because she is super deep into all the be priestess stuff of Greece, which I don't know that much about, but it's the same tradition in the Germanic land, and that's part of why I'm here. This is Bettina's research, I think I'm going to talk to her again. The mead cultures, they've all got their elixir. I think if you go far enough back, they're all in Amanita. But I guess if we all came from Siberia, then that they'd have to be Wouldn't they? Yeah, I'm gonna talk to I'm gonna set up another meeting with Bettina. Ah, this is so interesting. Oh my gosh, this is so cool.
Okay, big transmission today. Thank you ancestors, and yes, I will pay it forward. Yes, I will share it because you know what? Now I've got this framework, and now I've got this PhD team to keep me accountable, and now I just have to make the entry and play it for them. I gotta go back through my old entries and flag stuff for them, but I think that's a new trecena job. I will do that tomorrow. Okay. Wow, this is so cool. So my role is bringing in the psychedelic perspective. My role is bringing in the elixirs of the world, in the material cultures, tracing it back to the fact that it all is probably Amanita, which is not super new research, but it's kind of like a remix on Wasson and Ruck’s Eleusis shit. But we're going back way further, and we're including the perspectives of those who are not just white men. We're bringing in all of our independent research that we've all gone out and collected with our senses, bringing the sensory, bringing the material into the spiritual. What that means is trans dimensional travel. What that means is shamanic journey, and what that means is actively reaching both ways, is actively connecting with the ancestors and not just possession, not just pulling them into our vessels, but offering our vessels to them as altars going into their realms. That's what the journey is. Is it the same thing? Kit’s kind of calling me to ask this question. That's a research question. I don't know. Let's explore it. I feel like it's different. And I feel like this is where psychedelics come in, because if psychedelics do, I can't explain how it works right now, but psychedelics do allow you to bring somehow part of your material into the spiritual and I trust that that's going to become clear as I go further along on My research. But that's the distinction spirit possession and performance in this world, versus we're going into theirs too, like I just went to the Germanic fire. I don't know where the fuck I was, in another dimension.
Our bones are the key to this. And I kind of wonder if you have to break them in order to be able to move between the realms. I think maybe you do. I think maybe you do, because that kept coming up yesterday, Pauline was like, was there something in this injury that changed things? And I'm like, Yes, and I don't know why. I don't know if it was just that it really broke down my ego, but I feel like it's about more than that. I feel like it's more material than that. I feel like it's actually something about breaking the bones. So this is what I want to look into more. And maybe I'm just, like, interviewing Olivia. I don't want to fucking, like, apprentice with everyone. I can't. And if I'm going to apprentice, I want to apprentice with the plants. And I just want the people to be the intermediary and the fungi and the trees. And that's where the druidic and the Irish connection comes in. That's connecting me to my bones. That's really important. I gotta do that. But also going back to South America and Central America, yeah, and there's something about going back to Peru, and I feel like I have some maybe, like work and ambassadorship to do. I'm going to talk to Laurel and Thyra about this too, and Publio, that's the land where it started. And how do we honor that and also recognize that that's not where the tradition came from, and this is part of what I need to communicate to the people in my spiritual circles here. Okay, I think I've got my mission for today is for the medicine.
