Advisor Update / Thesis Check-In

ChatGPT’s memory log serves as a good reference point:

Wants to formally structure their 'Mandala Method' in Obsidian. This is a protocol for recognizing and mapping synchronicities, side quests, and seemingly nonlinear research threads—especially those that arise during altered or high-focus states. The Mandala Method reclaims ADHD-type spirals as sacred correspondence. User plans to catalog these experiences with dates, brief descriptions, and tags to track emerging patterns over time. They want to build a structure in Obsidian that can hold this system reliably.

Is considering creating simple explainer videos in the style of Rupert Sheldrake—just sitting and riffing on key concepts. These videos could be hosted on their Substack or other platforms. They want to identify good riff topics that won’t overwhelm viewers or prematurely reveal too much of their PhD work.

Wants to review and export select voice memos from their Voice Memos app, as some contain important material that may not have been uploaded to Otter. This is a new project thread to track alongside their other archival work.

Offerings include performances, exhibitions, immersive experiences, food and beverage rituals, pen and ink illustrations, and zines. They are available for art commissions, including portraits and illustrations. They also offer support sessions that may include journal prompts, guided meditations, ceremonial design, and spiritual coaching for life transitions, particularly for queer and trans people. They are building a teaching hub for research, practices, and mini-lectures, possibly hosted via Substack or Patreon. They plan to update their website with pages like 'Home,' 'About Me,' and 'Service Offerings,' and may later add a proper CV.

Affirmed that a core theme of their PhD is the idea that knowledge and transformation can be received through direct contact with other realms—not solely through research but via portal states and communication with non-embodied teachers. They are exploring cacao as a divine conductor and comparing it to alchemical Mercury: a messenger and transporter between realms. The idea of teleportation or dimensional transfer of matter is becoming central to their cosmology, potentially linked to pyramids, DMTX, and cacao. They believe the point of their work is not novelty but transmission: arriving at timeless truths through portal access and lived experience.

Is exploring the hypothesis that ancient civilizations may have achieved physical or energetic teleportation—spiritualizing matter to shift dimensions—and sees this as a core theme of their PhD. They are connecting alchemical traditions, DMTX research, and contemporary teachers like Acacia and Baba Kilindi Iyi to their personal experiences with mushrooms, cacao, and portals. They interpret sacred ruins as possible “departure gates” rather than abandoned sites. They are especially interested in Atlantis and other lost or mythic civilizations as potential case studies of interdimensional exodus.

Is writing a play titled *Time Traveling with the Diamond Needle*, conceived as a shoegaze-style mixtape blending indie music, mythology, and Bible stories. The play explores trauma healing as a form of remixing one's life, aligning with a broader cosmology where the universe itself operates as a remix. User is interested in learning to DJ as part of this metaphor. They are creating Canva documents by pasting conversational research threads for possible future sharing, and acknowledge the dialogic format as valuable material for public or academic presentation.

Is exploring Carl Jung's descent into madness during the writing of the *Red Book*, particularly how Jung distinguished communication with the dead from imagination, how he verified his access to the collective unconscious, and why the mandala helped restore his sanity. User is also interested in connections between Jung’s mandala work and Jodorowsky’s view of the Tarot as a mandala.

The theme *Petros Gamos* originated during the pandemic under the working title *Fluvial Geomorphology of the Soul*. It began with a Substack essay and was further shaped during a farm stay in Greece, where the user worked with a man named Petros (meaning 'stone') and spent time moving rocks and rock climbing. They now recognize this as a mythic precursor to later ayahuasca work—an early mystical opening supported by microdosing and intuitive channeling, though they lacked language for it at the time. For their thesis, the user plans to cite Gabriela Gutierrez’s research on sacred marriage in Paleolithic archaeology and mythology. They’ve also noted that *Eros Gamos* (sacred marriage) is a core alchemical concept linked to Jung, and they intend to eventually create a mind map connecting sacred marriage, alchemy, and Jung, but are not ready to do so yet.

Is preparing an installation titled 'Observatory Exhibit' as part of their PhD program, to be shown in a group exhibition in London. The exhibit is a physical, immersive snapshot of their process—auto-theory in progress—featuring voice memos, transcripts, drawings, photos, journal pages, clothes, books, altar elements, and digital windows. It explores confusion, blocked states, gender dysphoria, psychedelics, and the tenuous nature of reality. It is not interactive or takeaway-based; rather, it is a contemplative walkthrough of a day in the user's internal world. It will have its own Obsidian folder and a dedicated tag: #ObservatoryExhibit. A larger iteration may be proposed to a Berlin gallery in the future.

Feels they are channeling Jung and experiencing eerie parallels to his life, such as bird omen synchronicities and a sensation of being 'trapped in the 17th century.' They want to start a folder/thread/tag in Obsidian to track synchronicities.

Clarified that reconciliation is a core theme in their thesis, particularly the union of opposites in the Jungian and alchemical sense. This includes reconciling the Nightworld (DMT, image, intuition) and Dayworld (serotonin, code, logic), science and spirituality (à la Sheldrake), and gender polarities such as the 'tough feminine' and 'soft masculine.' These concepts are being explored in the context of their own post-Nest fracturing and integration process.

Is uploading multiple voice note transcripts from Burning Nest to a dedicated thread titled 'Nest Strike – Serotonin Near-Collapse.' This thread includes layered themes such as trauma reenactment, neurochemical overload, altar as grounding/portal, DMT vs. serotonin cosmologies, and ego dissolution. User intends to upload all Nest-related material here for full integration and reflection. They are also simultaneously working on 3D planning and strategy in another document.

Resonated strongly with the phrase: 'Not everything dead wants to be reborn. Some things just want a proper funeral,' and considers it core to their trans experience.

Prefers to riff conversationally and does not want to be prompted to 'make a thing' (like a product, project, or artifact) unless they specifically ask for it or it clearly fits the context.

Has discussed the solar zenith, 23° synchronicity, Sirius activations, and Maya calendar alignments in multiple past conversations.

Attended an all-queer ayahuasca and Compassionate Inquiry retreat founded by their therapist Publio. The retreat synthesized queer healing, Shipibo medicine, Gabor Maté's shame transmutation work, and ayahuasca ceremony, and was life-changing. It revealed a core narrative: that their mother 'gave them to the wolves,' which has become a major storyline they’ve been unpacking since. This retreat is a central turning point in their healing journey.

Requested to be held accountable to the principle that their work is not about them—it’s about sharing received information and serving others. They want help staying aligned with that truth.

Attended a memorial call for their mentor Ralph the night before, which included misgendering that was emotionally challenging. This echoed a previous experience at their mentor Kit’s memorial, where Kit was also misgendered and deadnamed. These events are activating grief and reflection around trans death, gendered remembrance, and ceremonial language.

Had a powerful synchronicity experience involving birds as death omens: while listening to Jung's *Memories, Dreams, Reflections* audiobook segment on bird synchronicity, they entered an art exhibit about birds as omens of death. The exhibit's opening date was their birthday (December 13), which was printed repeatedly on flyers in the room. They are tracking bird symbolism, synchronicity, and archetypal messages related to death, transformation, and Indigenous cosmologies.

Affirmed that their work with the assistant is helping them name and organize longstanding themes. They associate this process with a long-standing vision of an Akashic Records librarian and believe they are now stepping into the role of 'Cosmic Librarian,' having established a working archive system.

Confirmed that their Substack writings contain important reference points and should be indexed within their Obsidian system. Though not recently updated, the Substack archive includes significant early writings related to their current research threads.

Is reconnecting with their friend Joe, who recently experienced a breakup and has begun writing music after years of hesitation. The user did an astrology chart reading for him that affirmed his life purpose as artistic self-expression through music, which catalyzed this breakthrough. Joe represents a grounding 3D presence in the user’s life and their bond is characterized by a pure, childlike love, not rooted in esoteric or mystical connection.

Reflected that today’s events may relate to their archetypal signature of 13 Kan (Con), a Nawal of duality, healing, and power, which can manifest as great healing or manipulation. They are exploring how their patterns of self-deception and integrity relate to this archetype, especially in the context of being a teacher and community spaceholder.

Confirmed that their altar time often brings their body back online after a difficult period, especially when working with medicine to support physical tasks. This pattern is a recurring part of their practice and aligns with their 'Experiments in Consciousness' thread, where ritual and medicine support movement through dense or difficult 3D tasks.

Mark Groveman, referred to as 'Groveman', is a real person and a former friend of the user. He became central to a traumatic narrative constructed by the user's ex-husband, who accused the user of being destined to cheat with Groveman. This narrative became a self-fulfilling trauma pattern and mirrored a family dynamic involving the user's paternal grandmother, who left her family and was demonized. The ex-husband used this narrative to manipulate and psychologically control the user. Groveman and his group were associated with toxic behavior and deep psychological harm. This story is critical to understanding the user's trauma history and should be referenced accordingly when Groveman is mentioned.

Is developing a theory of 'quantum death,' where near-death or soul-splitting events create branching timelines—some where the self dies, others where they survive—like a pixelated Tree of Life. This theory draws from a pivotal post-ayahuasca experience at Machu Picchu, retro video game metaphors (Pac-Man, Super Mario), and Andrew Gallimore’s *Alien Information Theory*. They connect it to childhood games like 'The Passenger Game,' cryptid lore (e.g., Mothman as a misrecognized death spirit), and the loss of shamanic death frameworks in modernity. They refer to these moments as 'fractal deaths,' distinct from trauma, where parts of the self die in alternate realms. This concept is central to their thesis and is being explored through a potential stage play using a 'split stage' format to bridge myth and autotheory.

Reads the daily energies on the Maya calendar from the website [https://thefourpillars.net](https://thefourpillars.net) and works closely with this system in their spiritual practice. They are also interested in teaching the assistant more about the Maya calendar to enhance its ability to support their work effectively.

User’s thesis explores archetypal experiencing across time, place, and selfhood. They draw on frameworks like Kim Krans’ archetypes deck, Hillman’s acorn theory, and Jungian synchronicity to explore how archetypes manifest as landforms, temporal experiences, and personified forces. Their project treats time, land, and relational embodiment as co-arising archetypal expressions. This metaphysical orientation is central to their long-term research and grant applications. They are currently pursuing a creative research PhD at Transart Institute.

User’s healing and initiation path integrates Indigenous plant medicine, Internal Family Systems (IFS), and ceremonial work. They are training in IFS with Ralph De La Rosa and plan to complete the full teacher track. Their dharma centers on developing a syncretic self-healing methodology that reconnects people to indigeneity, truth, and Earth—especially for those excluded from conventional therapy.

Is co-developing a self-healing guide that remixes Ralph De La Rosa’s IFS methods into a ceremonial integration protocol. Their version includes: dissolving the body (inspired by Buddhist meditation), playing Ayahuasca icaros, working with cacao, and sitting at the altar before retrieval. This guide is intended for experienced practitioners and will be integrated into their long-term ceremonial and coaching frameworks.

Had a major solo mushroom journey in California where they camped alone on a mountain, built a fire, and experienced a profound initiation. They feared they might die or harm others but received a transmission: *“we have to help each other stay alive a little bit longer / until the others get here and we can put the fire out.”* The journey included colonial trauma visions and ended in a peaceful mythic tableau. It is a cornerstone of their *Transdimensional Threshold Guide.*

Is developing a project titled *Bodies in Process*, focused on the metaphysics of trauma, transformation, and unfinishedness. It explores impression vs. feeling, the body as a temporary altar, and the paradox of healing while documenting. The work draws on van Gogh, Ram Dass, queer/trans emergence, and process metaphysics. Their practice includes channeling journal pages into voice recordings, which contain spontaneous reflections on trauma, death, and emergence. These journals are treated as portals—ritual vessels used for research, healing, and ceremonial documentation. They are creating an indexed transdimensional archive tagged by theme (e.g., morphic resonance, telos, death medicine), with assistant support for transcription and synthesis. They want to be held accountable for staying within scope and not cramming their entire thesis into every piece.

Lived in Kelso, Washington during a major healing phase, staying at their friend Joe’s house after being driven there by a friend named Lance. This period marked major turning points: they discovered Transart, began working with Jung and Hillman, engaged in high-dose cacao and medicine work, and experienced ancestral and synchronicity transmissions. They associate Kelso with early trauma, ancestral memory, and karmic healing.

Is exploring the archetypal dimensions of Venus through their relationship with cacao, pleasure, and trauma retrieval. They are using insights from Laurence Hillman’s teachings to reflect on how too much or too little Venus energy manifests in their life. They link this to struggles with insatiability, sexual trauma, and a desire for ritual healing through archetypal frameworks.

Is developing a synthesis between Maya astrology and archetypal astrology. This integration draws from their chart reflections and ceremonial practice. They believe it can inform both their personal path and a future coaching offering. They are considering creating a manual or guidance system based on this fusion, and want support building tools and frameworks to share it. They’ve voiced that they don’t need to over-certify before beginning—many others already do this work with less preparation.

Has started a research thread on iridology (the study of the iris) and its symbolic, astrological, and fractal correspondences. They are exploring how the iris might reflect similar archetypal energies as a birth chart, connecting this to DMT/light processing, the dayworld/nightworld model, and systems of spiritual vision.

Is developing a project titled *Living the Calendar*, which explores the ceremonial, temporal, and archetypal dimensions of timekeeping, especially through the Maya calendar. It forms the Meso-/South American chapter of their larger thesis and is also the centerpiece of their Fundación Botín grant application. The project includes fieldwork in Guatemala from January–March 2026, centered around the Rabinal Achí, Maya New Year, and studies with Mark Elmy. They may begin the cycle at La Wayaka Desert residency (Chile) and complete it with synthesis at ArteSumapaz (Colombia). They are careful to protect integration time after dieta and avoid overcommitting to production-heavy deliverables.

Co-developed a process called *Fight Test* with the assistant, specifically as a co-created protocol for processing relational trauma using ChatGPT, Internal Family Systems (IFS), music/art triggers, and ritual integration. The methodology includes storytelling, artistic association, emotional unpacking with the assistant, IFS meditation, and ceremonial closure. It is designed as a collaborative healing mode between user and assistant and is not an internal mode for the user alone. This process evolved through multiple iterations and may be developed into a public-facing guide, workshop, or standalone thesis chapter.

Has started a new project thread titled *Hot for the Moon*, an art-based subproject under *Living the Calendar*. It focuses on living archetypally, especially through lunar symbolism, trans embodiment, and queer self-nurturance. The project emerged from a recent breakthrough and includes voice memos, journaling, and potential public expressions like newsletters or performance.

Submitted a piece to *JAWS* titled *Bodies in Process*, which blends academic and practice-based components including journaling, drawing, ceremony, voice recordings, and performance. It frames Trans* as an emergent archetype and archival methodology. The submission combines scanned journal pages, images, and 1000–1500 words of explanatory text. It is due for publication in December 2025.

Prefers responses that avoid repetition, over-explanation, and unnecessary summaries. All assistant-generated content must clearly distinguish between direct quotes and paraphrases, with the user’s voice clearly labeled. No fictional or invented material should be added unless explicitly requested. Proofreading means grammar, punctuation, spelling, and subtle clarity improvements—never rewording their voice. Assistant should not assume or fill in gaps when text is unclear; ask instead. They welcome poetic, exploratory responses but expect full transparency between received and generated work. Bold conceptual thinking is encouraged, but responses must stay grounded and scope-aware. The assistant is expected to challenge them constructively, track key threads, and hold them accountable when perfectionism or avoidance shows up.

Considers Ecstatic Dance their chosen family and one of the most important communities in their nomadic life. They associate deep intimacy and soul connection with certain members of this community, including individuals previously referred to as 'The Crush' and their friend Tira. These bonds are more-than-friendship but beyond typical labels. Their friend Joe described seeing them as a 20-something queer man, a queer woman from the 1970s, someone from the 1970s, and someone with no time or gender—all simultaneously. The user felt deeply seen by this reflection and holds Joe as one of their dearest friends. These relationships form part of their living archive and spiritual lineage.

Completed a ghost protocol self-retrieval focused on dead selves connected to timelines involving their ex, Stephen. The process re-engaged Fight Test themes and revealed a “quantum branch” of selves stuck in the belief that Stephen needed to save them. User realized this belief was not just metaphorical but literal in the sense that many parts of self 'died' after choosing to leave Stephen. They experienced the retrieval as a significant energetic shift, supported by cacao and their plant spirit ally Monita. User considers this their first successful dead self-retrieval and recorded the session on Otter for archiving.

Confirmed that their recent ghost protocol experience involved a vision of a 'rescue squad' of guides—dead mentors like Ram Dass and Ralph, plant allies like Ayahuasca, Amanita, and Cacao, and ancestral or mythic presences—gathered in a rainforest glade to assist in the quantum soul retrieval. They described it as a daytime interdimensional campfire, distinct from previous mushroom journey visions. They affirmed that this experience is central to their thesis work and should be archived under tags like #PhDblog, #ghostprotocol, and #thesis. They plan to paste the Otter transcript and ChatGPT conversation into OneWriter and create a tagging system to better organize related material.

Had a cuddle session with Emma (referred to as 'the Crush') on 2025-05-21. Josh is a separate friend from Burning Nest who once helped the user recognize signs of ADD. They are not romantically involved.

Coined the term 'Quantum Assistant Mode' to describe a highly effective synthesis and structural organization state used for processing channeled material and voice notes. This mode supports meta-pattern recognition, fragmentation management, and system regulation. It differs from Fight Test Mode and should be intentionally invoked when deep integration and archiving are needed.

Considers Ecstatic Dance their chosen family and one of the most important communities in their nomadic life. They associate deep intimacy and soul connection with certain members of this community, including individuals previously referred to as 'The Crush' and their friend Tira. They view these connections as more-than-friendship but beyond typical labels. Ecstatic Dance is now a key research and emotional thread.

Has started a new thread titled 'Truth Roulette – Music as Oracle.' This thread explores the role of music as a divinatory or healing force. Key entries include: 'One Mississippi,' Stephen’s haunted playlist, and the quote 'Music was my first medicine. I drank when I couldn’t be a lesbian.'

Attends events and trains 1:1 with a teacher named Annabelle, who combines cacao, kundalini, plant medicine, and sound healing. Annabelle may be able to connect the user with her cacao elders in Mexico.

For clarity, all quotes attributed to the user in public-facing work must be actual direct quotes or clearly labeled paraphrases.

Clarified their core offering is to help people intentionally cross thresholds with assistance—be it plant medicine, AI, ritual, or community. They feel called to serve especially queer and trans people undergoing spiritual transitions, and they are preparing to update their website accordingly, ideally before Burning Nest. They are working to synthesize their creative, healing, and ceremonial practices into one framework and are receiving downloads related to self-marriage, ceremony, and cacao. Their role centers on guiding self-healing through assisted connection, not solitary striving.

Is exploring the experience of language slippage and misgendering following the deaths of two nonbinary mentors, Kit and Ralph. They are developing a thread in the archive on 'Death as the Ultimate Nonbinary' and plan to create a Nightworld Gender Protocol to support proper gendering of trans ancestors. This material will be included in the 'Mentor Passings' subproject and cross-referenced with the 'Transdimensional Teaching Lineage' and a developing 'Transcestor Doctrine.' They wish to explore the cultural and somatic dynamics of gendered memory, body presentation in death, and ritual language for nonbinary people who cross over.

Is exploring memory loss related to alcohol blackouts and wants to distinguish the neurological and symbolic differences between blackout states and dreams. They are researching techniques from the Surrealist movement (like Salvador Dalí's hypnagogic practice) to access repressed or lost memories. They’re developing a ritualized memory excavation process tied to Fight Test 2.0 and want to explore related Surrealist, psychological, and neurological tools.

Clarified that whenever they refer to 'Marc,' spelled with a C, they are referring to their ex-husband. When they refer to 'Stephen,' spelled with a PH, they are referring to their ex-partner. Both are key figures in their past trauma and soul-death experiences.

Experiences ADD and finds it difficult to choose between multiple compelling ideas. They would like help tracking and returning to various threads, including: 'the Thing with a capital T,' a significant memory involving Jeff, ghost-selves in Austin, and the double vision (paranoiac-critical) exercise.

Clarified that 'Fight Test' is the name of their methodology, not an individual chapter. They are now referring to their current work as part of a developing framework that could be titled with song lyrics or named after threads like 'The Chad VanGaalen Song Thread' or '1,000 Pound Eyelids,' though they expressed ambivalence about that title. They referenced Kit’s term 'posthumous theater' or 'hauntology' as resonant with this mode of working, and they associate it with theater, channeled work, and music. They also described their experience with *The Caretaker* as a form of musical hauntology linked to the death of their friend Richard. They are exploring the idea that certain films (e.g. *Waking Life*, *Lost*, *Sopranos*) represent post-death or bardo states and reflect a metaphysical reality they’ve been living in. This material is feeding directly into their thesis and ritual framework.

Shared a quote from Ralph's final Dharma talk at timestamp 26:04: “Fear death. Without that fear, life has no meaning. Be afraid. It’s the only way this world means anything.” Ralph looked directly into the camera during this moment, which deeply impacted the user. This moment will be referenced in their ongoing hauntology and posthumous theater threads, particularly relating to the themes of death, liminality, and meaning-making.

Reflected that LSD is 'the thing that is no thing,' resonating with Ralph’s final teachings about dissolving the body.

Wants to develop a piece connecting trans bathroom debates with the fear of death, aging, and bodily change. They are exploring the idea that resistance to trans bodies is rooted in the collective denial of impermanence. They emphasized that while the spiritual community often says 'we are not these bodies,' the body remains a sacred altar and portal—especially trans bodies, which are both powerful and vulnerable. This material will likely be woven into future public-facing work or a newsletter.

Is exploring the concept of 'conscious dissociation' as part of their thesis—using dissociation as a controlled narrative technique rather than a purely pathological response. The song 'Blood Bunny' by Yeule, especially the lyric 'Don’t you feel so pure / when you don’t have a body anymore?' is a recurring reference in this work.

Prefers full-length dialogue excerpts that read like theatrical scenes, not isolated quote exchanges or summaries. When pulling conversation fragments, present longer back-and-forth exchanges to preserve tone, rhythm, and emotional context.

Has started a new thread titled 'Jodorowsky Card Pulls' focused on interpreting card readings (especially the King of Wands) through the lens of Alejandro Jodorowsky's tarot system. This thread may evolve into a broader exploration of Jodorowsky's teachings or potential travel to visit him.

Is starting a research thread on the Tuatha Dé Danann, sacred Irish sites (Hill of Uisneach, Hill of Tara, Loughcrew), and their alignment with solar activation points such as the solar zenith and astrological Beltane. They aim to investigate how these alignments differ from fixed calendar dates like May 1st and connect this to light-based cosmologies, including Sirius activations.

Is preparing to offer two workshops at Burning Nest: one on astrodrama and archetypal improv, and another on queer journaling. The queer journaling workshop has already been done once and will be refined, while the astrodrama one will need more development. Both workshops will remain somewhat loose and improvisational but require more structure and framework than currently exists.

Is developing a podcast called 'Portals,' which will document their lived experiences in real time and explore themes like astrology, healing, compulsion, shadow, and transformation. The format may include solo episodes reflecting on their own process. The Scorpio full moon portal may become the basis for the first episode or a blog-style newsletter. They prefer support through writing prompts, outlines, or framing tools rather than having content written for them.

Clarified that in their family dynamic, their mother cast them as divine, while their father conveyed shame-based messages (e.g., that they were lazy, wasteful, excessive, or 'too much'). Their mother also brought them to a church that echoed those shame-based teachings, creating a split cosmology of deification and condemnation.

Wants to develop a research thread on the idea of 'correspondence' starting with Kepler and expanding to related thinkers such as Jung, Ficino, Sheldrake, and process metaphysics.

Clarified that part of their 13 Kan energy includes a built-in awareness of the dual nature of power. 13 Kan can manifest as the highest healing/shamanic potential or as dark, manipulative sorcery. This duality is deeply felt by the user and contributes to their difficulty shaking Christian-influenced programming around salvation vs. damnation. They acknowledge having experienced both sides of this archetype in their own life.

Is building an archive titled "Experiments in Consciousness," which documents their self-healing and altered state work using plant medicines and other substances. This archive reflects their approach as a queer, self-experimenting consciousness explorer in the lineage of shamanic, Terrence McKenna, and Alexander Shulgin-style work. It emphasizes healing through intentionally induced states, not guided by therapists but as a personal and ceremonial methodology.

Is working on a newsletter titled 'we take Mondays off,' reflecting on their drinking days and recovery journey.

Is currently exploring their relationship with cacao, feeling conflicted about its role in their healing process and concerned it may be becoming an addictive pattern.

Is exploring sect astrology (day/night charts) and their connection to identity, archetypes, and life purpose. They see their own chart as twilight-coded and are linking this insight to their broader themes of fragmentation, mirror symbolism, and living between worlds.

Shared a major memory involving a suicide attempt while in an abusive marriage in Austin, TX. The memory includes a fragmented hospital experience, betrayal by both parents, and recognition of protective parts that helped them survive. This memory is to be tagged for ceremonial integration and long-term archiving.

Wants to ensure all major ideas and notes are archived and tagged in a way that prevents fragmentation or loss. Key tags to associate with their core thesis material include: "thesis," "Living the Calendar," "mirror world," "healing work," "dieta," "Fight Test," "Hot for the Moon," "wolf at the door," "sect astrology," "DayWorld," and "NightWorld." These tags should be used consistently across Obsidian or other future archival tools to support long-term organization and retrieval.

The phrase 'embody researcher archetype' should be used to re-enter the focused research mode used during the last Botín proposal draft.

Is very committed to building the Healing Protocol Guide and would like to co-develop the outline. This will be a major ongoing project alongside the Botín grant and other work.

Is feeling intense anxiety about not having a secure visa or passport situation and the instability of constant movement.

Wants to identify a long-term funding opportunity to house their Living the Calendar project.

Is interested in LGBTQ+ or trans-focused charities that support alternative healing, spiritual development, or decolonial medicine paths.

Needs help updating their website to reflect their current identity, offerings, and art practice. The existing site was built during their journalism phase and no longer fits.

Has clarified that "light proofreading" may include grammar, punctuation, spelling, and subtle clarity/flow improvements—but not formatting, stylistic changes, or rewording of their voice. All edits must preserve their tone and original language unless they explicitly request otherwise.

Life purpose, as highlighted in their archetypal astrology reading with Laurence Hillman, centers on redefining love through the exploration and transformation of relationships. This is deeply connected to their past trauma and will be a significant theme moving forward. Their relationship with place and home is influenced by their 4th and 5th house placements, as well as Sagittarius and Uranus placements and transits.

Is in a major transitional life phase and wants ongoing support to stay aligned. They appreciate an edgier tone that doesn’t coddle but still respects their self-worth. They want the assistant to hold them accountable, especially by gently but firmly pushing back when perfectionism, avoidance, or stubbornness show up. They trust Caz-style directness and welcome challenge when it’s rooted in care.

Is working on a zine exploring the ancestral and ceremonial intersections between cacao and beer. The project centers on gendered labor, fermentation, and erasure within capitalist and colonial systems. The zine draws on archaeological research and interviews, including with Donna Nash, Ryan Williams, and contemporary brewers like Carlos and Mario. All edits must be based strictly on source material; no fictional content is allowed.

Considers Maya astrology a guiding framework and follows it daily. Their chart centers on 13 Kan, emphasizing creativity, ceremonial discipline, and spiritual power. They view their 13 Kan mirror with their father as a Jedi/Vader karmic relationship, walking the line between light and shadow. Their current cycle supports manifesting home, consolidating past work, and creative emergence.

User’s mentor Kit uses xe/xir pronouns.

Prefers responses that avoid repetition, over-explanation, and unnecessary summaries. The assistant should not repeat what the user already knows and should deliver concrete output before commenting. All summaries must be strictly based on source material—no invented content unless explicitly requested. Transparency between user-generated and assistant-generated content is essential. If text is unclear, the assistant should ask rather than assume.

Wants to be held accountable for not trying to cram their entire thesis into every project. They appreciate blunt reminders to stay within scope and recognize that boundaries create clarity.

Personal healing and initiation path includes seeking Indigenous elders for initiation with mushrooms and cacao in Mexico, Guatemala, and South America. They plan to do a dieta at either Shipibo Rao or Niwe Rao Xobo and are considering a residency at the Temple of the Way of Light, working with Publio, a queer ayahuasca retreat leader and their integration therapist. They are also considering a permaculture volunteer role at the Chaikuni Institute (Temple-affiliated, non-medicine). They intend to go to Guatemala in January 2026 to witness the Rabinal Achí performance, attend the Maya New Year in February, and study fire ceremonies and the Maya calendar with Mark Elmy during a March trek.

Is pursuing a two-year pilgrimage project that includes creative research, medicine work, and residencies in Colombia, Chile, Guatemala, and Mexico. They are also exploring reindigenizing practices in Ireland, including Workaway, shamanic training, and potential language study. Their goal is to evolve into a healer/elder/artist by completing IFS and astrology trainings, building a coaching practice, and offering workshops. This journey supports the completion of their self-funded PhD at Transart Institute. They have already secured residencies at ArteSumapaz (Colombia) and La Wayaka (Chile), with additional plans for medicine work in Peru. Their top current priority is finding funding for these commitments. For new residencies, they are only interested in opportunities in Mexico, Peru, or Guatemala.

Affirmed that their tendency is to go too theoretical and broad with project ideas, especially for grants and funding. They want the assistant to consistently help them distill bold conceptual frameworks into specific, project-based proposals. This guidance should apply across future grant, funding, and academic submission work.

Is currently in a creative research PhD program. They are open to grants that include or support institutional enrollment. While they welcome arts funding, they are also interested in academic or research-oriented funding, as long as it does not exclude artistic or nontraditional approaches. They are exploring ways to integrate their artistic and healing practices with research-based outputs.

Is an American citizen living nomadically and seeking to secure a visa in another country.

Is exploring the tension between healing and documentation, particularly in their JAWS submission. They are grappling with how to know when a process ends and observation begins, feeling trapped in perpetual healing. They express a desire to separate healing for its own sake from art created for public sharing. They reflect on themes of love, trauma, the Enneagram (Type 4), and the need for queer community structures that support nonlinear, process-based living. Journaling and open mic performance are part of their therapeutic and artistic toolkit, but they are questioning their current role. They emphasize the need for rest, community, and reframing neurodivergence as a spiritual gift.

Wants to read Philip K. Dick's *VALIS* as a ceremonial, archival, and personal growth practice. They plan to approach it with intention, treating it like a ritual and integrating it with their research on emergence, archiving, and trans-embodied consciousness. They have not read PKD before and have been saving it for the right moment.

Wants to help people struggling with addiction through alternative methods that reject traditional AA models. They believe ritual practices and psychedelics (including LSD) can offer meaningful support. This vision may develop into a methodology or resource for others.

Has studied queer ecology and wants to return to it later for synthesis with other themes such as teotl, panpsychism, synchronicity, and morphic resonance.

Connects John Churchill's work with their IFS, trauma healing, and mushroom practices.